two days never update since the last post. as normal veli, veli the busy. zzz (see fav movie) hehe . school was quite okeey . but at last lesson that something happen till it hurt. he now close back with her and they were close as how they does. i don't why i feel hurt ? i really confuse with my feeling. but everytime whenever i saw him with her it hurt. haisss .. maybe i'm i love with hym but that cannot happen i won't want to lose the friendship that we have build just bcoz of my love toward him. i really have to avoid this feeling before it go further. i aslo noe we can't and never be together bcoz eu alreday gave ur heart to someone isle. maybe we just be close friend as we does. but the care and concern that eu show toward me make me think that ur are mine forever and i will get angry whenever eu ignore me and go with her. i noe maybe to eu what happen today and what eu say it won't last long. tomorrow eu will sure forget. but i can't. it really hard for me to do that bcoz whenever eu did that i will remember forever and feel more than that and i felt oveboard till i forget eu just a friend to me. the sms we use to sent each other make me more wonderful and touches my heart but as i say eu don't take that serious it just to make eu happy for a moment and fade the next day. before it too late i have to avoid this feeling and always put this in mind "EU ARE JUST A FRIEND TO ME NOT MORE THAN THAT" i alreday lost one and i won't want to lose the second tyme . but what hurt most when i look at the girl that he in love with. ya she is far more cute than me as he once say and she have a white skin. not only that by seeing that it make me think that i'm not fer you bcoz between she and me we have lots of diffrent. and i think that i'm ugly bcoz i can't manage to win you but maybe eu not that kind of person just go by look but maybe it can be yes too. as i say between her and me there lots of diffrent and ofcoz eu will choose her bcoz eu have alreday gave ur heart to her. even if it hurt i just pray fer ur happinese but i hope eu will not forget our friendship that we once build the laughter and love in our friendship. but i glad knowing eu as a friend is the best a i'm very lucky and please. to avoid from this thinking and feeling i try taking photo of me without make-up not even a powder and it really nice and cute and i change and say " i'm preety and cute" maybe people don't see but it rather to be hidden then see. here who noe eu will think the same too xD . right,right, zzz. OUH NO ! is that my eye ? so big :P (but i noe still can't be compare with sofeaadilla)okeey going watch the chinese movie at channel 8. want see my handsome hero Dai Yang Tian xD ! wait fer the upcoming update [: thanks fer those who sincerely read my blog :]