Mother Tongue*11/20*

Englis Paper 1 *42/80*

English Paper 2 *39/60*

Math Paper 1 *24/50*

Math Paper 2 *32/50*

HAPPY ? SAD ? DISAPPOINTED?

i really don't how say. as i mentioned yesterday today is the big day. (not my weeding uh) hahas. checking slip ler. how should i start and how should i express it. maybe to others i'm just good just because i manage to overcome them in most of the subject. but i'm not happy, either sad or disappointed but i don't lah i just can't say anything bout my result. i don't i did much better or worst than my pass year. how i sholud face this. ya it's only mid-year mah nothing much even 1 marks i really worth and will help you. maybe i'm just not trying my best or.. haiss... today only three paper (but the most important ever and scary paper ler).

so mother tougue really disapponted me. i never fail but just a pass by 1 marks. i know i can does well but the paper this year is really diffcult. but a pass is okeey what. but that what eu think people for me, i'm useless and a loser. that what i been saying to myself i don't lah. i just find my self useless. English... once top in, but i won't ever got it again i pass but i just did average and there people did much better. and i congrats to the person. but haven't yeat plus oral but if plus also i don't i can catch up the top in English because the marks is really far. but again eu pass mah rather than us. tell me what is pass? to me pass is just a basic and everyone can pass even dumb and worst stupid people can pass if they work hard and eu compare with someone that is not stupid but not that smart either dumb to just get a pass? maybe to some people, that what they think but for me no. because eu can score high when don't you go for it instead of go for a pass. ya there people even worst fail ? so eu mean by passing by one marks from the failure eu are better lah and rather did well. sorry if i been to over. i just simply don't understand some people. they think that we pass we are good and better. but they don't know how we feel. eu aim high and ur target hign and eu can't achive it. won't eu feel bad of urself. put lost of efford in it. okeey lah i think i talk much alreday. let move to biggest ever subject in my life

Pass by six marks ? worth ? but i know i did my best but is that the best i ever did. it may be true that i never get this marks in history before but i did it. but by adding six marks more? i really can't explain myself. i was so eager and believe i can do better and score more because i wanted that and been studying very hard for it. or my hard work are just not enough? i pass my math by six marks but my aim is higher than that. i know there lots of people even worst than you but aren't eu feel useless. eu been studying very hard got tution and this what eu got. i don't how eo face my tution teacher tomorrow. ya she will not scold me ofcoz. but ... just want let eu now till now i heaven told my parent about this. because to me no point to be proud of serious no point. if that what eu got. i know i should be thankfull and proud of what i have receive but i still can't accept it. maybe after fe days. i really home. but not even in my heart ever say to blame god. maybe i just need tyme all this pass to fast for me and lots things happen kight a lightining

PS: no story for whole of today okeey. no mood lah. sorry

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