actually i doesn't want to post today but i don't lah my feeling recently seem strange
i feel too weak to see the world to wake ever single day and no mood of going school either
i was otw home today and i was walking home. while walking, i thought for a moment.
why my life is so mean? or i'm the one that make my world mean?
i also don't what i was thinking.
i did said myself.
it seem that my will to have a chinese boyfriend seem no hope. and it seem that i have to choose and find someone that are same as me. MALAY boyfriend
why every guy that i in loved with will never in loved with me back.
but the guy that i didn't in loved keeping wanted my loved.
why i can't ever just once to be with the one i loved like other do
why must they come for a while and gone on the other day.
the world is keeping change and people aslo change
but i'm still here and my life is always the same
it too long i being alone that i didn't reliesed that it time for me to make myself happy
i always make other happy but it seem that other simply don't even have a little of appreciated
keeping hurting, and hurting me as they no i will sure beg to them
sometime i feel that i so dumb that people take advantage on me
but i just can't everytime i tried i will end loss i can bear i don't why

STUDYING PERIOD STARTED !

was studying yesterday but Pet society still play. hehe
well here is my time-table for next.

weekday:

• school as usual
• after school go study with classmate if can.
• if never go study on comp till evening at night study
• babysit straight after school quickly play Pet Society before go for babysit

weekend:

• tuition as normal and religion class
• after tution on comp Pet Society till evening night study
• after religion class again Pet Society den night study ler.

will blog if have time kay. i really need focus now. well yesterday whole day at home never go out. today got tuition and mybe/maybe not going out. ok lah need go finish my Pet Society ASAP !

Sayonara Desu:)

will post quite early today as i need to off comp ASAP. want go study soon ler. two more week to N's ler. plan to study at night that why now playing comp and try to limit myself. well school was the same. P.E played basketball but no mood ler. den after school went Compass Shi Jie and Choon Yong wanted to eat at KFC. have or lunch there. an hour head home den babysit for 2hrs. now going upload photo at facebook. been trying whole of yesterday cannot. don't why sia. will try again today. ok lah i need start play my Pet Society alreday.
Sayonara Desu:)

done at last ! wanted change my blogskins and yes i found it. but still need to do some changes. maybe tomorrow. super tired ler. and plus my favourite drama is now showing, school was ok. English watch Mama Mia half way change. duh.. after school went HM with Adilla buy new school shoe. den called mummy and met her. trim my hair yeah, is thin now. den went Metro bought Levi Original! . been wanted that bag for so long and yes i got it. den went look for heels. seach everywhere end up buy at BATA. hahas. no bad quite nice ler. ok lah gtg alreday,
Sayonara Desu:)

super happy duper. i got my internet back ! yeeeahhhh.. was playing Pet Society. so many things had miss and need to settle it. super fun ler. just a month or two lots of changes has been made and the games become more and more fun. actually i'm lazy now to post today but well it prove that i here so just post a little. was late to school again ! was sent to VP and she nag ler. after school went CP for KFC. helping and working with aunt is done so now focus on N's no more sleep late but comp still can play. hahas. (lame)
Hari Raya was ok. thought i got no clothes but end up i got 3. one is free ler. it was given by my boss. hehe. and it worth $270. this year my whole family is WHITE. pure ler. hahas. second day was brown:) photo will post tomorrow. wanted to post today but camera battery low ler. so see ya soon. good night !
Sayonara Desu

okeeyy.. lots of stuff want to talk. well just finish English Paper and yeah English is totally done. and now is is Math. will start studying Math all the way. hahas. English Paper 1 and Paper 2 was easy. much easier than prilem. hope can get an A. Throughout 10 years of studying not even one time i got an A so i really hope N-Level can got an A please?

aryte is alreday past right no point saying about it. working at aunt place was oookkkkk.. but the most intresting is my boss ! he quite cute lah. hahas. LOL :D
actually his not the big boss a small boss. he in-change to take care of the place i work is.
he is the son of my aunt boss. at first i thought he was so action but after days of working he seem quite friendly ler. he is mix of Arab ! i try lah to snap a photo with him and i shall put at my blog. hahas but all this happinese going end soon. only left one more week to work. i only work for fasting month only:(

Hari Raya is next week and i still heaven't bought my Hari Raya clothes. how to search everyday work and end at 11pm-12am. no time to search. but i got intrest on this Baju Kurung lah it nice but it better if you have someone to comment right. well just thinking and imagine ...... how i wish i got a boyfriend now? can give suggest, can sent me to work , fetch me from work. how sweet is that. that what i was telling Ashnee yesterday. anyway Thanks ya Ashnee for making me accompany. ok lah i think i should stop. i'm not using my comp is Shi Jie comp and i'm at his house now and it not nice to use very long hours on things that not yours. hopefully my modem will dilever soon and i should not have to go people house to use. anyway Thousand of thanks to Shi Jie:)

in school ler. hahas . yeah i got the chance to use the internet. in classroom now using lappy ler. we all were given a lappy due to do our Computer Lab is closed. luckly i have done all den use the internet. so good right? clap*clap*. well was very moody ler. i miss watching BLEACH and playing my Pet Society. everytime i heard the BLEACH song it remind me our BLEACH. see my comp remind of Pet society and ofccoz Blogging ler. lots of unexpected things happen and it really hurt. i don't know whether this is the right choice i made. everywhere i go there always a memorise of me and him and i felt that i missed him but hatred still in the way. i don't lah. and yesterday while otw home and i took the bas that we once took and it really made me upset till i wanted to cried. why must happy things end easily and suffer for long? love become hatred and hatred become love. why must good relationship end up to bad relationship and bad relationnship end up good relationship. seem that each day we are drfting and it really hurt. okey lah Mr Wu is mad alreday and his lesson going end soon. till i wrote again don't when. I MISSES HIM !