actually i doesn't want to post today but i don't lah my feeling recently seem strange
i feel too weak to see the world to wake ever single day and no mood of going school either
i was otw home today and i was walking home. while walking, i thought for a moment.
why my life is so mean? or i'm the one that make my world mean?
i also don't what i was thinking.
i did said myself.
it seem that my will to have a chinese boyfriend seem no hope. and it seem that i have to choose and find someone that are same as me. MALAY boyfriend
why every guy that i in loved with will never in loved with me back.
but the guy that i didn't in loved keeping wanted my loved.
why i can't ever just once to be with the one i loved like other do
why must they come for a while and gone on the other day.
the world is keeping change and people aslo change
but i'm still here and my life is always the same
it too long i being alone that i didn't reliesed that it time for me to make myself happy
i always make other happy but it seem that other simply don't even have a little of appreciated
keeping hurting, and hurting me as they no i will sure beg to them
sometime i feel that i so dumb that people take advantage on me
but i just can't everytime i tried i will end loss i can bear i don't why