this time at Compass Point library:) ok how should i start. firstly i want said this I MISS YOU SUPER BADLY BOY. ouh god i beg you... please give me a chance to meet up with. 1 month 11 day since the last time i meet him:( plus my internet is still cannot use and that even made us difficult to communicate. **sign** wanted to text him but i scared he is busy and i might disturb him. so now all i can do is stare at his photo:/ until there's one day i guess i miss him super badly till i didn't off my lappy and his photo is preview till the next morning and i fell asleep beside my lappy. luckly mummy did not saw. ok lah i also don't what to write anymore. will stop here. I MISS HIM BADLY...):

at Tampinese library now. went for interview at Pizza Hut and tomorrow start trainning. i don't know if i really want this job. i just said yes without thinking it wisely. i got so many things tomorrow and i still can said yes. urghh... but it ok they gave me 3 days trainning but no paid:( if can manage den i will continue. well it my first time working at Food and Beverages and it is totally far diffrent from working as retail. i seriouly don't understand myself lately. i feel so down and i don't why. i kept regreting my life. everything in my life is all not right. and god is really not faor to me. i reject two outing today. i just don't feel like meeting anyone nowdays. i just want be alone and i don't think i need a person now.

there problem with my internet at home all thanks to my annoying brother. because of him i cannot use the internet. there's problem with the modem and need to be change and i don't how long will it take. the only things i can do is to use free wireless.sg and good news i just discover my phone actually can use internet. so there is no more worries. now i don't what to do. going home or meet up with cousin or my ex-classmate. alryte i guess that all i can said will update when i got any wireless with me.

just finish updated my cute calendar that i bought 29 March at Plaza Singapura. after 3 months then i got myself a calendar. while writing those memorise i felt sad. eventhough 2010 is a tougher year for me but there is still memorise that bright up the darkness of my dark side for 2010. and i believe there will be more to come. i really wish i can turn back those memorise and i will pause it and make it stay forever.

done with household. and yeah i'm go green.. my room is clean and i love the new design i arrange my furniture. hope it will last atleast a week lah. hehe. if can a month better:) after mummy off to work i'm alone at home as usual. kinda bored now. how i wish i got boyfriend now atleast can meet up with him. all my friend is busy meeting their lover. me? at home alone tlk to myself. zzz.. i still have not find a job. i also did not manage to ask him. hmm.. i guess if he really need my help he will inform me. so i don't bother to ask him. yeah tomorrow going Malaysia.. Shopping? neh nono ! mummy said she will just a grab a stuff that is needed but she promised when she get her paid then we can go shopping. looking forward for that day.

still no idea what to do now. mybe play some games. want watch movie cannot download as the stupid firewall don't allow. haiss.. wanted go out but lazy de. haiss.. a bored day for me again.

(photoshoot at Botanic CREDIT TO JOEY)

!FRIST HILDAYS OUTING !

went to Botanic. we planned to meet at Bedok inter-chnage den take bas 7. took bas 87 from Sengknag and i reliase North to East kinda far. hahas. 1hrs journey. zzz.. today the bus driver super nob:/ i'm using the new ITE ez-link card and it obvious i'm still a student so i can pay student fare at 55 cent. but the bas driver said cannot must pay adult fare which is 1.60. because i have not activate it yet. but i got no change. luckly got this nice anuty gave me her 1 dollar cos she only have one 1 dollar while i got a 2 dollar note:S so cannot change. reach there meet Debra den go staright activate ez-link and top-up. den Joey came. got eat den went to buy battery and bubble at the same time we planned whether still want continue with our plan or not. cos the rain still did not stop. but Joey said just go cos maybe we reach there the rain maybe stop. but.. the rain did not stop ba:/ but that did not stop us eventhough it rainny we still went in. what an awersome nature place. walk here and ther. pose her and there ofcos.


den head to Plaza Singapura as Joey and Debra want to eat. ate at KFC but i did not eat was full. but i saw this hawwtt guys. he keep looking at me and i kinda "shy" OMG ! he so hawwtt.. taught he going ask for my number or email.. but he did not:( OMG ! enough Aishah you alreday got someone in your heart now. pity him ok? well no worries it is not wrong to see hawwtt guy de. afterall my love to him is still there and forever in my heart. so boy don't worry. istill love you deep ok.. and it hard for me to fall in love with that someone and forget you. walk-walk at there until don't where to go so we plan to go home. otw home saw Adilla so called her and she ask to meet her. so my plan to go home cancel. hahas. accompany her walk-walk again while waiting for her sis. after an hour i off home and she went off suntec to meet her sis..

called mummy and ask to meet her at Compass as i need buy some stuff for cousin b'dae tomorrow. mummy also bought ink for me. hehe. so now i can start printing. hehe. but well ink is not cheap aishah neh no worry will use it wisely na. have our meal at Long John Sliver it been quite a long time we did not have our meal there:D home sweet home.

now i need wait for Jey to upload those photo. hahas. can't wait sia. but will upload at facebook people. there is about 100++ photo and it kinda large size so will not be able to upload here. tomorrow going Geylang with mummy. hehe. can buy that long-long skrit and ofcos my Cendol. hehe. alryte will update tomorrow ba. see ya ok.

PS: 1 month i week since the last time i meet him:( i miss him badly. hope can meet up with him soon. target is tomorrow. god... i sill have not receive your miracle can you gave that miracle tomorrow??

!! HOLIDAY START TODAY !!

should i work or not? there's advantage and disadvantage. the advantage is can get money but i'm not use of woking other place rather than the place i used to work. but the problem now i'm not sure if there's still upcoming concourse. wanted to ask him but.. i scared lah cos i been rejecting his offer when he need my help. well that time i really cannot got exam mah. hmm.. see how maybe i'll try to ask him later atleast i don't have to worry of finding job. so here come the disadvantage part. if i still choose to work, i must go find here and there and not sure if can get. if get also it will not be the same as how i used to work as i working with people that i don't know and can i endure all the way. if i choose not to work mummy sure bugging me to do household which i super don't like. haisss... there also assignment need to be done. need to revise cos straight school open EXAM start again. urghh.. this killing me. maybe i just work with mummy lah atleast it is at home, i can online, eat also free but just the pay lah not there good as compare if you work outside. all depends ba. will see how it goes.

yesterday got no mood at all. i also don't why. there's why don't feel like blogging. now i don't what to do kinda bored:( how i wish i got a boyfriend now atleast can talk to him and he can gave me some suggestion. haiss... if i'm not that kind of choosy person i guess i got a boyfriend now. hmm.. should i still wait for him? chasing a love that can't never found. how long i can just play with my imagination.. well it better than nothing. just don't untril make me crazy can alreday. hahas. alryte that all for today. going first outing tomorrow with Joey and Debra we going photoshoot. Haji Street, Fort Canning or Singapore Art House?? maybe all three..LOL.. yeah can't wait for tomorrow ba:D

RUNNING NOSE!

i want sleep. but i can't. Shi Jie sending me song and it still not yet download. while waiting better i blog rather than doing nothing. Napfa done and i manage to complete it:D pheww.. 2.4km i got 55 out of 200 plus participant. hehe. still tired actually. tomorrow still need come school. don't feel like coming and plus i got problem with.... haiss..

i hate people that got a problem with me and share it to other and if affect other. and you siad you need their help. it is about you and me so we both should settle it. why must you go here and there act like one attention seeker. telling everyone that i was mad at you. what the hell you doing. you just making it worst seriously. and now don't blame me if i can't never forgive you. i really hate this. i'm sorry lah but i really can't take it. atleast the first problem i can put aside but now you doing this is.. it just getting me of hatred you more. and i said this seriously i don't think our friendship can be like how it used to be. this is the fact you have to take. whether you like it or not. and i totally regret telling you my personal stuff. i'm sorry. i just can't forgive you

well the song is done and now i'm ging bed. it seem that he ignoring me. but if he really busy i can undersatnd but if that just and excuse i guess it just a waste of my time thinking of him. and saying about this i think i want forget him and i will try my best to killed the feeling toward him far away. cos can see that we really can't be together:(

I go on and on this merry-go-round

Trying to chase a love that can never be found

Time to say goodbye and step off of it now

It's over boy.

JAY SEAN - CRY

YEAH ! CSV DONE ATLAST !

thanks to god i can do the paper smoothly and i can answer all question. the only things i can do now is wait for the result and hopefully i will get the mark that i aim for:) well will not touch CSV book at all for 3 weeks till 11 April:P and good news ! HOLIDAYS COMING people. 3 day left !!! but will need find job soon:) there's also assignment need to be done:/

went Simpang Bedok with Choon Yong today for our dating. hahas. been two week of Tuesday we go dating and that make me remind of my FAVOURITE storybook tittle Tuesday with Morries By Mitch Albom but i'm going change it to Tuesday with Choon Yong. hahas. cool right Choon Yong? see i so good post about you on my blog. hahas. anyway I NOT BITTER ok i'm still much sweetest than "her". hahas. i ate Crispy Noodle that cost me 5 bucks and Ice Milo cost me 2.20. but luckly the crispy noodle nice so it worth. hahas. but next time we should eat at Tang Restaurant instead of Simpang Bedok:) tomorrow got Napfa and the part i hate is 2.4km run. hope i can make it to the end. i will not eat anything for lunch tomorrow but i will eat BANANA only. hahas.

i thought he going text me but he did not:( always like this if i keep looking forward for him i will never get. but whenever i never look forward on him i will always get. i really kinda of miss him. hope he will called me tonight if not text me tomorrow ok? i will willingness and going said a yes ! *cross finger now*
new friend coming in the way. but as i said i'm not in mood of making friend cos i really need focus on him now. this time not just a crush but a real love and i really love him and trying my bset to get as closer with him as possible. so i hope you people understand. and i more things i said this (no offend) it very hard for me to accept new friend as i very choosy. it easy for you to win my heart but for you to get my heart is really hard guys. ok that all for now. toodles. see ya and i miss him:)

I'M SICK OF STUDYING THE SAME THINGS !

urghh.. 3 day it took me to study one subject, make me to make a choice that not of my will. reject something that i been looking forward for. all because of tomorrow one CSV exam. this is really crap. ITE is much crap than secondary school. seriously exam finish still need come school and still need study. lame right ! i really want to get this over quickly. luckly holiday coming. but no point pile of new assignment have to be complete. crap totally crap. now i'm doing CSV revision AGAIN but i don't what to study i been studying the same things all over again and i totally sick of it.

school was fine as usual but OSA so good Ms Leng only do one assignment but still that took me 2hrs to complete it. zzz.. no point complain i guess. i choose this path and i have to walk with it. 9 more months left and i going done with that OFFICE skills. i don't understand. we are on office skills but we have to learn Customer Service (CSV) that is just for reatil what. as i said ITE is really crap. what my secondary school teacher said, get this done quickly and go to poly. which i been looking forward to:D i really cannot wait:) ok i better do some revision now. i won't want to not doing well for tomorrow CSV as i been studying like crazy and i really work hard. it also make my INK finish just to print that pieces of note over and over again still i did not get it right. so i m going get 95% for that or atleast 80% lowest. but i really need god help for this. cos all have been plan. i just hope i won't feel disapointed. and what ever marks i get i still can do the best in time and must be thankful. as i always said maybe i lost good things now but i will get even better things ahead. god is always fair:)

I'M HUNGRY ! SUPER HUNGRY !

supposed to work today but for now my first perioty is to REST and STUDY so i reject the offer. sorry again i can't give you a helping hand. 5 day more and Holiday coming. still thinking should i find a job? i guess beeter i get a job can money. going find job soon after all EXAM finish. but what kind of job i still not sure.

religious class as usually and yeah CA done and today is the last week of the term so it mean there's no religious classes for Next Sun:D but got assignment need to be done.

mummy still not back. ouh ya till i forget the swollen on my right eye still not gone yet. it really irritate me. feel like pressing it but when you press it the pain cannnot stand. any suggestion to heal swollen eye? should i sleep or wait for mummy? still need to revison for CSV.. haiss..

waiting for photo to be upload. super lack !
well went Zoo today as i said yesterday. thanks god our Journey went smoothly.
not mach changes at the Zoo as i thought. we also did not look much animal there due to time. but we really have fun. with those wonderful kids. was exhausted but with those kids we don't fell tired at all. they so cute lah. and plus i love kids. ok nothing much as i wanted to go to bed. tomorrow still got religious class need wake up early again. photo have been upload at Facebook. no time to upload here. alryte. Nite see ya.

RIGHT EYE SWOLLEN:(

been sleeping 12.30am plus for the pass two day. busy studying on CSV for today Mock Test. luckly all question can answer only two question i stuck. 12 marks gone. urghh.. i study from Unit 1 to 5 but only tested unit 1 to 3. there still one more CSV test coming this Tuesday and this one really IMPORTANT. must really score high i really need full time of study and REST this weekend and Monday. Nafa also coming up on Wednesday:( hope everything will be fine. what worries me now is my health. hoping not to get sick this few days. and i really need more that a rest

took my passport today ! Thank to Eelah and Layla for willing to wait for 3hrs with me just for one bloddy passport. really not worth. while waiting for turn went to Bugis first ate at Mac and played lappy a while only. den wanted to walk-walk at Bugis but they don't want. so head back to Lavender for passport collecting. thought is done but there's still 100 plus people before my turn. so need wait again.t took webcam but a few photo only as my lappy bat left 27% after an hour of waiting my number was called. was so excited. hahas. NEW PASSPORT mah. hahas.

after collecting, went Payar Lebar cos Eelah want find those long skirt as she wanted to wear it tomorrow to go Malaysia. search about 4 to 5 shop but did not fine. hahas. but not a waste actually. hahas (well i won't mentioned cos it only for me to keep this) took 51 all the way to Hougang reach inter-change cousin wanted to buy frappe at Mac so walk-walk at Hougang Mall after and hour off home. but went grandma house to take some stuff. off home and reach at 7.40. going bed really soon. will eat first den off to bed. need wake-up very early tomorrow and i really need that 10 hours of sleep. hope my swollen eye will gone when i wake. going ZOO tomorrow yeah.. hahas will talk more tomorrow maybe and ofcos will take lots of photo:D

alright going give way for the photo now.

(there's more at cousin Hp will post once i go it)

i hate today. WEDNESDAY ! bus always full, and there's always traffic jam. end up i'm late for school. today i manage to control my temper i thought for the whole day but i get mad at Eelah and Ain for CSV so sorry guys. but i will tried not to scold anyone for a whole day. hahas. that my aim. hehe. i screw up for OSA today. urghhh.. we currently learning EXCEL it really hard than what i learnt in secondary school EXCEL. will try to catch up. but still i'm going hate it. i alreday did badly for Microsoft Office. haisss.. i don't know why i'm in this course. it's ok few month left and den i'm going do what i been wanting to do. Higher Nitec in Early Childhood.:) looking forward for that. now i'm hungry. i want EAT KFC but mummy bought me Hor Fun.:/ well anytink will do lah i super hungry. going eat now and den STUDY !! EFC in-course tomorrow... hope will do really well. best of luck to me ok:)

PS: i want be ur girlfriend can?? if i tell you i'm in love with you can??:S

...090310...

this date will put on my calender in RED. a date with hmm.. was awersome. but he was prank by me at first. no worries i appreciated it alots. from Macpherson ITE went Bugis first then head to Semei to meet me as we plan to meet at Semei. called him never answer. so take bus thought want go home. in the bus he called as said he outside Semei alreday. zzz.. and i said meet at Tamp as i on the bus on the way to Tamp. he was pissed actually. hahas. but he still meet me at Tamp. hahas. so went to food culture to eat as i was super hungry. den we chat-caht and jokes as usual. hahas.
den off to Tamp 1 walk-walk and off home sweet home. reach home at 8.30pm and dad was at home. luckly he did not nag. what a day and i really fun. seriously. hahas. will be looking forward for out-coming date soon. anyways there's no photo taken as we were both busy. hehe. anyways if there photo all people going know him right. hahahs. and gentlemen out there no worries he not either my boyfriend even future boyfriend. he alreday taken. so still go chance. hahahs

well i start to laugh a lots nowdays. well thanks to those kecoh friend of mind. hahas. we are not BITCH we are just acting normal. either seeking any attention from guys. we may be loud and crazy but we still can control. 1week 3days to holidays. but there assignment given as i said better don't give holidays right. zzz.. but it ok will have enough time maybe more than enough time to enjoy those holidays. hahas. school getting better and better just the study part.. will try my best to like that and i will get a balance life in ITE. and hope soon i will looking forward of coming to ITE. today almost all my class is crazy. we laugh out loud like nobody business, make noise and etc. maybe we forgot to eat our medicine. but tomorrow hell start in the morning going get NAG from our mother (MS LENG) well we make too much noise and there's teacher complain. but she at fault actually. whatever we just need bring a cotton bud to stuck on our ear. lols.

PS: so sad and so sorry i can't help him as i still not on holidays and EXAM is round the corner. and i can't expect myself to work. zzz.. so sorry. but if you need me on my holidays i will willingness to help you:P

...BORED...

should start revision now EFC EXAM this thursday and CSV next week. but nothing start yet. again i still can't get that bloody mind of mine to stay focus. i also don't know what my mind busy thinking off. hmm..maybe i need to talk to that someone and everything going gone. but...(*sign*)

cut that off. tonight will try to start revision atleast there's something done. school was awersome atlast. hahas. full of laughter but come to study lots of pain. but...it ok holidays is coming 1 week 4 days. so many stuff been plan. but after break pile of EXAM coming. better don't gave holidays right. zzz.. when all this study can end. why must Education is so important. haiss.. but it ok start from diffcult and easy in future. no pain no gain right? ok lah i also don't what to said. aryte see ya:P

i can't get mind in those Pass Year Assignment. urgghhh.. i hate assignment. not that i don't know how to do, it just i can't get my bloddy mind in it. zzz.. tomorrow comes weekdays which i also don't like. haisss... but it ok left 1 week 5 days and i'm counting it down to March holidays:DDD. but before that exam is coming. the whole week of tomorrow. i really need to focus. ouh gohss.. what is my mind thinking off. i really must get ride those unimportant stuff in my mind aside an i really need focus for my EXAM. i just wish there's someone to keep nag at me and tell me to study. (but it obvious not my mum either friends) their nag won't help me but add on my stress. hahas.

religious class was awersome. hahas. not much study as we celebrated our Prophet Muhammad.S.W.T. amazing race was conducted but my group didn't win but we really have fun learning more about our prophet:) today did not go out was sleeping whole days. hehe.

made my passport yesterday. yeah ! atlast i got new passport. hahas. den have meal at Beach Road. and ofcos remind me back of memorise. last time used to go there. for.. buy NCC stuff lah. hahas. those memorise can't be forgetten. eat seafood clayport. was so hot but nice. hahas. den reach home change den wait for cousin to come and off to Downdown for niece b'day party. not many picture took as i was busy eating ofcos. hahas. ok i better start do my assignment before my mind go shut. alryte. see ya:)

NEED A 24/HRS OF AIR-CON !! +

WANT GO SPA FOR SHOULDER AND NECK MESSAGE !!

end school at 11.15am, actually end at 12pm but teacher so good release us early today. she also did not teach. hehe. wanted to go home straight but Sha asked me to accompnay her ate Pancake at Cafe 2. after eating, we off home reach home mummy heaven yet go for work. asked mummy to go compass as i wanted buy ink for my printer. but there's no stock. so went to look for a gift for my niece. was so shock all the cloth was so cute. wishing i got a little sister. but know what kids cloth are much expensive than adult. cannot decide what to buy too many choices. so we did not buy. mummy said maybe tomorrow go find again. and maybe tomorrow going make my passport:) so many overseas trip coming, yeah... hahas.

so where i been those 4 days. hahas. was at home. but ITE time is like working time start at 10am end at 5pm. reach home at 6pm. bath, eat dinner check facebook den tired alreday. no time to blog. and start of next week THEORY exam coming so must really study. will less down on surfing the net. but it just last for 1 week 5 days and yeah i can smell my March holidays.. yeah. so many activity plan but i think maybe i need go work. not sure. but if i really do, then maybe it's better. as what my "BOSS" said when he ask me maybe he need my help and i said i just wanted to relax and enjoy my holidays and this what he said "MAKE MONEY" so guess he got the point there. rather than i hang out which i'm going waste my money better i work got money.

ouh ya i almost forget something. PIE make-up and dress up.. still remember??... hahas. well was awersome. not only i look gorgeous but professional. my OB too all look smart. sure hired by bosses out there. hahas. and want know what i wore. hehe. well photo did tagged from my classmate but not all in but i will post only my photo at my blog. so.. called urself luckly cos i did not even yet upload this to my facebook. i wore a HOT PINK. and only me wore PINK. almost all my mates they wear white. hahas. see i so daring:S but my teacher said good choice as the color really suit me :D. ok will stop here for now. sorry if this posting going be a long one. hehe. so you guys ready... tagged me how you think of me, if you were the boss will you hired me and what kind of position suit me:D
PS: more photo at facebook:)

yeahhhh... last Practical Exam PIE tomorrow. all done just hoping tomorrow things don't screw up. what a rushing hour today. school end at 3pm went to Tamp help Nattie find her shoe. from one shop to another shop still cannot find her shoe when found the shoe she want no size:( so went off first cos i still need go Bugis accompnay Ila take her paid. and Ila want buy stuff for PIE. but when reach there, her paid was given by cheque. zzz.. so she cannot spent. but i'm the one spending. zzz.. bought top and cover heels. so total up i spent for PIE about 50 bucks plus. not included my make-up and brushes. but Ila just bought a cover heels. after that still need go aunty house take pants. reach there quickly try. luckly it fits so after trying aunty put at paper bag and off i go home. reach home mummy cook sardine. zzz. i hate sardine so ask mummy buy Burger Ramly for me as there's "Pasar Malam" nearby. hehe. and yeah tomorrow school start at 12pm again. still i want sleep early super tired. well last minute doing stuff did really works:P see ya.