blog update since i can't sleep & im so fucking bored. well something bad happen to me:( my feet got swollen it been 3 days already. went to the doctor but the doctor can't explain what is the reason cos i didn't fall either hurt my feet but it got swollen. but the doctor ask me to do a blood test. damn.. tat ws my greatest fear ever no choice wnated to run away but mummy was beside me cannot escape. so when to the room was so scred & then it start not even the nurse put the needle in my arm i already cried worst come i cried all the way & people keep staring at me while mummy not stop laughing at me -.- damn... it so fucking pain can't u understand. zzzz... this will be my first & last i!! bad day ever. well the doctor gave me a pain killer feel better & got two day MC but still i feel bad lah supposed to work yesterday & today but last minute have to cancel. im so sorry & i didn't mean it at all. sorry guys those who work today & ofcos to my manger lifang for making u to do extra job. still thinking should i go to work but best not i will just make things worst. my swollen still not gone just the pain & mummy will not only get mad but upset & disappointed. well going rest at home then. lastly before i end this post i think i start to miss my admired & forget my crush.. but this can't be i must stop this feeling cos i already got a crush & i think i miss him more. i'm not kind of person tat will used something new to overcome something old it toally not fair. maybe im just too lonely & u came to cheer me. this feeling must stop. will not text him if he text me & will said to myself he will not text u so don't bother to wait for his text like one dumbass.. alryte going to bed i guese.. nite.