i totally don't how to start. well had an awersome day yesterday with syg. tks for making my craving comes true. been craving to eat Pizza Hut since i wanted to try the new menu:) supposed to go with my ex-secondary school classmate but to disapointment last minute we cancel:( but no worries i got it the next day!! was so happy. not only tat we did have a cup of Starbucks before head to Pizza Hut for dinner. & well after ur main course u will sure not want to miss getting a desert right?? wanted to try the new desert at Pizza Hut also but syg got a better plan we decided to have our desert at Hageen Daz:DD what a food outing day we had.. more to go ok?:) it been 2 week school start & all i can said is boring plus no cute guy. not only tat im also don't know why i in this course actually. zzzzz... but going change course soon pray hard the course i been wanting i can get. **crossed finger**

ok now let move on to my love story... zzzz.. hmm.. well love have always been tough especially when u don't know if the person really like u. he may shows lots of things to make u think he had feeling towaard u. but i hate making assumpation cos what if he just wanna have fun maybe just a friend. though we been acting like more than a friend still i can't said he had feeling toward me. lots of friend keeping sayinh he sure had feeling toward me but... i guese i know it well.. & now the word used been bodering me. i just scared that he's using me. cos i did ask him out but he always reject but we always meet late night?? well i said again i can't make any assumption. but i really hope what i think is not true. i did try to ask him whether he had feeling toward me but again i scared, tat he may think other way round he will think that im the one had feeling toward him.. zzzzz.... so many negative things i been thiking just bcos of tat one word "used" but i did really have fun when with him especially when he hold hold my hand & hug me. he going NS soon hope it can be much easier for me to atleast forget him. i still not sure if i really have feeling toward him but it's better it stay this way. no point falling for someone but they don't fall for u at all. will just let nature to its part but all i can said he is the first guy tat really did something tat every girl want especially for me. tks but i really hope u not using me. what i wish now before he go NS i really want to have a date out with him atleast once? i know it won't happen but i don't mind if this will be my first & also our last date. i really hope he will change his mind & gave he will give the chance:/

will make a fast post a short as possible off to bed really soon. tomorrow lesson start at 8am but at 6am need to wake up >.< it been already 4 days since school start. orintation for 3 days was so bored. & worst things lesson already start today & there no cute guy :(( higher nitec seem much tougher but i still can't stay focus i still on holidays mood. plus just a day before there's misunderstanding between me & him well it not his first doing this to me. i did force myself to be patience but hey boy! there's always a limit. it's so hurtful. why it so diificult for u just to understand me & one thing i ask frm u please be serious espcially with ur word. What are words, If you really, don't mean them, When you say them, What are words, If they're only for good times, Then their done. & even make me upset u know i was so upset on u but u just act nothing happen don't even bother to comform me. the worst thing & the most painful thing can happen is when someone u really care hurt u:( but i can't said much u not my bf not even a special friend either. but i just want u to know that i really care & i really appreciate ur present in my life & i will try my to give all i can & will always be there when u need. so i really hope u can do the same too. it left a few week before u went for ur National Service & i really want to cherish every single second with u to spent as much time as possible though it's just for a while every second count dear friend. lastly before i end i know it seem long but last word i did miss u thugh u don't miss me. just take care wherever ur.

it april. damnnn.. time move very fast -.- it means im starting school soon!! yeahh.. can't wait for it. pray hard tat, there will be a hawwwtt & cute guy in my class.. hehe. atleast i will be looking forward to go to school each day;P well my life been so good, fill with lots of love so many unexpected things happen. 310411 heart is my best day so far in 2011 but i guese there's more to come. crossing finger:) firsly i got 105 heart frm him!! totally don't expected he post tat 105 heart in my fb so sweet.. early morning u wake, on ur fb first notification u got 105heart frm the one u really adore. hehe. & den in afternoon someone unexpected again, willing to come all the way to my block to meet me. hahas. all tks to my swollen feet. i really thought he was joking when he said he's otw to my house but he really did:) so sweet. but don't get things wrong we're just friend! i still love the one tat gave me 105 heart:)so work was tiring stall been very busy recently & i getting bored & lazy to work. nehh.. no worries it will be my last week & den will not give my full commitment on working but study.. but something going stop me -.- my RGM (Restaurant Manager) is putting my name for some challenge & the trainning will be very tough -.- pray hard i will be able to manage my time with study & tranning. well i just wanna gain some experience & meet new friend:)) ok i guese i need to end it here. sorry my blog been so wordy:/ hell ya it my blog & i can do what i want. see ya ard! PS: to my dear friend get well soon ok rest well & i will always pray for ur health. don't sick2 wait no one can accompany:( take care ok:D